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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
This year is HELL for me! I've come to a point where I want to go on my knees and beg god for things to change.
I can barely go to school due to personal matters. It's like I appear in school once, maybe twice a week. The troubles come so often, that there are barely days I'm spared.
Last night, I worked on an assignment. The whole night I kept up, working bloody damn hard on it. Its my best subject this semester. I didn't want to screw it up. Then, at about 6.15am or so, my friend left me an message online.
"Isa"
"Help me."
"My mother passed away."
"I dont know what to do."
I was left in shock. I didn't know what to do either. My friend lives alone with her mother since her parents separated. Now, she has no one. She didn't know what to do when her mother passed away. She didn't even know how to call to arrange a proper funeral. She never expected this, at least not so soon.
So I went to meet her. I helped her call a few of her relatives to help with the arrangements. There I sat with her, trying to console her. She was so lost. I know how she feels, I've lost a sister before.
I knew her mother.
Imagine not being able to see or talk to a person you love - forever.
To Kexin, I hope what I've mentioned above explains the situation I brought you to, this morning. I don't know what else I can say, but I definitely know you are frustrated with me. Who wouldn't be ...
I am sorry.
I can barely go to school due to personal matters. It's like I appear in school once, maybe twice a week. The troubles come so often, that there are barely days I'm spared.
Last night, I worked on an assignment. The whole night I kept up, working bloody damn hard on it. Its my best subject this semester. I didn't want to screw it up. Then, at about 6.15am or so, my friend left me an message online.
"Isa"
"Help me."
"My mother passed away."
"I dont know what to do."
I was left in shock. I didn't know what to do either. My friend lives alone with her mother since her parents separated. Now, she has no one. She didn't know what to do when her mother passed away. She didn't even know how to call to arrange a proper funeral. She never expected this, at least not so soon.
So I went to meet her. I helped her call a few of her relatives to help with the arrangements. There I sat with her, trying to console her. She was so lost. I know how she feels, I've lost a sister before.
I knew her mother.
Imagine not being able to see or talk to a person you love - forever.
To Kexin, I hope what I've mentioned above explains the situation I brought you to, this morning. I don't know what else I can say, but I definitely know you are frustrated with me. Who wouldn't be ...
I am sorry.
Friday, July 27, 2007
Okay, Starhub SafeSurf like totally sucks. It's a free, value-added service for Maxonline Ultimate subscribers. THEY BLOCKED DEVIANTART! It's like my ultimate favourite site in the world. I'm so pissed.
Friday, July 20, 2007
I'm sorry Dee, Alvin and Effendi for a wasted effort.
The four of us headed to Commonwealth this evening to sell off my VAIO notebook. That bugger offered $1700 initially on the phone. When we arrived at his shop, the price dropped to $500, then to $450, then to $300.
Well he said $450 maximum if its a graphic card problem and $300 if it was the LCD. Since he was too stupid and didn't know how to tell, he refused to buy it for anything more than $300. I left for a second and, when I returned, it became $200.
I about to just screw the money and throw the notebook in his face. I walked out, and headed back to the East with the guys. I'll find some other place to sell it off.
I was frustrated. So, so frustrated. I bought that notebook for $3000. It was just so insulting.
The four of us headed to Commonwealth this evening to sell off my VAIO notebook. That bugger offered $1700 initially on the phone. When we arrived at his shop, the price dropped to $500, then to $450, then to $300.
Well he said $450 maximum if its a graphic card problem and $300 if it was the LCD. Since he was too stupid and didn't know how to tell, he refused to buy it for anything more than $300. I left for a second and, when I returned, it became $200.
I about to just screw the money and throw the notebook in his face. I walked out, and headed back to the East with the guys. I'll find some other place to sell it off.
I was frustrated. So, so frustrated. I bought that notebook for $3000. It was just so insulting.
Monday, July 16, 2007
I created a Windows Gadget today. Wow, I am amazed at how simple it was. What I created as you can see below, streams Class 95 when in use. Basically the only "flaw" in this, is that the Gadget is hard-coded. You can stream it off my comp ONLY.
Its basically, html+xml+(in my case)photoshop as well.
Its basically, html+xml+(in my case)photoshop as well.
Friday, July 6, 2007
I tried to create one of those studio shots you always see around. Added a border, the reflection, tweaked the background gradient, etc. Not VERY impressive but good enough for a first try.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
My parents are uber annoying. They'd promised to buy me a new notebook, but they keep delaying. I was so annoyed today. Instead of buying me one first, they decided to head on to Courts to get one for my Dad.
I don't know. I somehow, don't want to hold a grudge against anyone. In fact, I kinda feel bad of how I've been towards them. Like the late nights, not really bothering about what they say...yada..yada.
I feel bad, especially towards my Dad. I feel kinda of weird. I used to not give a damn how he is and what he says. Long history behind that. But there was this one thing he told my Mom that struck me.
It's going to sound retarded but, I find it quite true.
It's about the surname I bare. The "Alhadad" surname. He said to my Mom, "He has the Alhadad blood in him. I know how he is like - because he is just like me. If I don't control him now, you will lose him in the future."
It's true. My uncles, on my dad side, are all very hard-headed. The ones that have been well looked after are all rich and succesful, however, the ones who have chosen to live a life of their own, life isn't so terrific for them now.
I usually am on very good terms with my Mom, a month back, I disappointed her so much, she cried. I feel terrible for that. I vow never to do that again. As much as she can make my life so difficult at times, I usually bare with it. She cried because I blew my top that day. I had tolerated too many things and couldn't take it anymore.
Imagine this, I disappointed my Mom once and she cried. My Dad, I disappoint him EVERYDAY. I can't imagine how he feels. I think the reason I don't see his disappointment is because, as a guy, he doesn't show it.
I can't sleep thinking of this. As much as I want that new notebook, and that I am uber annoyed because they posponed mine to get my Dad's first, I don't want to make them sad or worry about me anymore.
My Dad returned and told me, "Hey, I bought an Acer, is that good?", and I went like "Yea, sure."
Before that, I even refused to accompany them to help him find a good one - knowing that they don't know anything about computers.
I'm a terrible son. I want to be good. Maybe, they'll see it in me someday and realise it.
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Remember Hurricane Katrina that hit New Orleans, United States? "The Saints Are Coming" serves as a tribute and remembrance of the tragedy.
Vocalists: Bono & Billie Joe Armstrong from U2 and Green Day respectively.
The perfect combination in my opinion. Just listen to the strength of their voices. Simply amazing!
Haha! Ryan thinks I'm Gay!
I managed to convince him into thinking that I am!
ROFLMAO
I managed to convince him into thinking that I am!
ROFLMAO
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