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This year is HELL for me! I've come to a point where I want to go on my knees and beg god for things to change.

I can barely go to school due to personal matters. It's like I appear in school once, maybe twice a week. The troubles come so often, that there are barely days I'm spared.

Last night, I worked on an assignment. The whole night I kept up, working bloody damn hard on it. Its my best subject this semester. I didn't want to screw it up. Then, at about 6.15am or so, my friend left me an message online.

"Isa"

"Help me."

"My mother passed away."

"I dont know what to do."

I was left in shock. I didn't know what to do either. My friend lives alone with her mother since her parents separated. Now, she has no one. She didn't know what to do when her mother passed away. She didn't even know how to call to arrange a proper funeral. She never expected this, at least not so soon.

So I went to meet her. I helped her call a few of her relatives to help with the arrangements. There I sat with her, trying to console her. She was so lost. I know how she feels, I've lost a sister before.

I knew her mother.

Imagine not being able to see or talk to a person you love - forever.

To Kexin, I hope what I've mentioned above explains the situation I brought you to, this morning. I don't know what else I can say, but I definitely know you are frustrated with me. Who wouldn't be ...

I am sorry.